ranting about drawing

I AM UPSET RIGHT NOW
SO UPSET

so listen up readers
today i basically wasted my life away and coupled that with doing a bit but still not all my homework
then at around 10 pm
i suddenly decided to get my stuff and just draw
now this isn't why i'm upset
i'm upset because i'm proud of the new oc i drew
he looks cool in my opinion
but whenever i try to redraw him it looks like someone else
it's. so. frustrating.
i've been sketching this guy for the past 2 hours and none of them look like the original idk what to do
and it's getting late so my emotions are more easily riled
i just want a second opinion on this
but i can't scan right now because it's late and i don't want to wake my parents w/ the printer
also it's cold and i don't want to get out from under the covers
sigh....
SIGH...
i'll post the sketches tomorrow
by then i would have finally have had a breakthrough
or given up

wish me of the luckiness IF YOU DON'T I'LL BLAME YOU WHEN I FAIL

BYE~